Hi BlarneyStone and welcome to SR.
Everyone here has given good advice, and even AA is a personal program, basically we get out of it what we put in. Most important thing for me was that I had to want to stay sober, MORE than I wanted to drink. It was AA that helped me to get through the hard times, and helped me turn my life into something a little more manageable. Much like Taz, it was hard sometimes in the beginning, that is where the support of the group helps. It will get easier with time...
Cathy