So, Cath, you've made a decision, but have you finished that 4th Step and 5th Stepped it? Action and more action. Faith without works is dead. Blah blah blah.
It was essential for me to get some relief pretty quickly from that fear and shame when I got sober. It was killing me. And while those two steps (and the 9th) were uncomfortable at times, they were necessary for me. I couldn't wish away or pray away that fear and shame and all the other negative feelings.
To this day, I still don't understand what people mean with that turn it over business. I had to turn over my life and my will, not my things or feelings. And I do that action of turning it over by writing an inventory and setting things right, not by wishing.