Coming_clean,
I'll just pile on to what Taz said. The absolute biggest deterrent for me getting sober was having a plan to do so. As long as I 'knew' what I needed to do, I stayed drunk.
I can't tell you how many I've witnessed this with others. It seems universal for alcoholics unable to stay sober. I've seen so much evidence of this, that I think even my or your own plan would work, as long as truly believed it wasn't my own plan.
When I gave up knowing what I needed, I began open to recover. Read Chapter 71 of the Tao Te Ching.