You're probably right about being too close to the situation. I have no idea what's going on in general, and nobody around to help me with that.
So I guess I'll just keep going on and hoping it keeps. Knowing it probably won't.
No AA nearby, one if I can get away long enough to get there--haven't been able to yet, but it's still on the list.
I apologize to all for losing my temper. Took a spin in my car.
Got some eggs and sugar and no whiskey. TB's all better now. Well for now. I'll shut up now. Sorry to bother everyone, and thank you all for your answers. When I'm less angry I'll read them and they'll probably make more sense now. I just can't see anything right now.