Penny,
I can relate so much to everything you have shared.
I can become so overwhelmed with EVERYTHING I need to do. Then that emotion comes into play, and I avoid/procrastinate even more.
Try to set some short term goals. This is what helped me, take onne room, or one project. Work on it for 15 minutes. Then, take a break and either continue, or go onto something else for 15 minutes. Try to allot yourself a chunk of time, that you devote
to this 15 minute mini-tasks. Then, that is it, and move on. You can do this for several days, or every other day..whatever helps keep you moving and motivated.
I always remind myself that this alkie didn't become one overnight, so, it was going to take just as long to start and get my life back on track.