Congrats on your 9 days Kez. Remain ever vigilante, that odd feeling you are going through is a whisper..... from 10 days ago....... kind of a lulling way of drawing you back. It took some time for me to quit missing the drinking, not the hell or even the pleasure it brought, but just doing it.
Kind of like missing a lover who treated you like manure, even though you know how much that lover had harmed you, there is still something missing with the lover gone.