Hi Weston, glad that you're writing and reaching out.
I went through a lot of the same thing. I went on a regular bender, would feel so sick from all the alcohol intake, take a break for a couple of days........usually laying in bed for most of it and then I'd feel good again and the cycle would be going again.
Have you gone to a meeting? Have you asked for a sponsor? If you haven't yet, my suggestion here, I would do that. Also work the steps. They are crucial and I am a big fan of them. We may get sober but I feel that you have to do the work in order to stay sober.
Keep reading and posting and welcome to SR!!