Hi there. I wasnt a drinker. But I am an addict. But I grew up in an alcoholic house.
My dad, gram and grandfather were all alcoholics.
My dad is 20+ yrs sober. My gramps died and gram drinks once in a great while.
So I can relate to it being in the family.
I am the only addict tho.
Great job on 6 days. The first few days are the hardest.
I dont think many people can 'manage' drinking. And I totally agree that its how you feel when drinking. Why you drink and all that stuff.
If your functioning in your life. That doesnt mean it isnt harming you in other ways. Like you already said you feel like crap.
And hiding and making excuses and being sneaky are all sign of being an alcoholic.
It would be very easy to just tip the bottle. But that wont do anything excpet make you feel worse and eventually make everything much harder.
I hope you feel better. Stay close with us if you need to. You are def not alone.
Glad you are here.