Welcome to our recovery community.
Your post reminded me of me. I wouldn't drink until my daughters were in bed - somehow, in my mind, this made it 'okay'. I made it to work, owned my own home, etc - but I was drinking most nights and every weekend. I wasn't emotionally available to my children when they needed me the most. I was consumed with drinking, although I didn't know it at the time.
My youngest girl turned 14 today. I haven't had a drink in a while now, and she and I are very close. My eldest is 17 and she's just beginning to let me back into her life after being estranged for several years.
You've got a shot at living a life beyond your wildest dreams. I'm glad you're here.