I dunno if it will scare you but I used to be you
I never ever drank except for the buzz, I regularly drank too much, I worried from time to time but always told myself I was overreacting and continued on
Then I began to lose the functioning part of my 'functional alcoholism' - more embarrassments, more sick days, my reputation shot, relationships damaged....
I began to make friends based on and around drinking and drugs...
I ended up drinking all day everyday because I resolutely refused to believe I had a problem.
2 and a half years ago I stopped the madness...I stopped drinking. SR helped me.
Welcome to ya 2manyBobs
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