it feels like maybe i have given myself permission to drink. The guilt is starting before i even have a drink, if that makes since.....
Maybe i was just looking for a reason to drink or trying to talk myself into it?
Im just scared of myself.. I know what will happin if i go out now matter were i go or who i go with...
I'm gonna stay home and close to SR...
I already knew what i should do i guess was freaking out...
Thanx for the wake up guys.
