Newmorning
Thanks to all of you for all the replies. And before you ask, yesssss I did make it past all the stores last night. Thinking about SR kept me going. I woke up feeling great, I'm at work not feeling dizzy or queezy. I thought now just the weekend to get through, but you know what? I remembered what I learned: Today will be just wonderful.
I think you are right, you feel like such a failure and then you have another until you don't care and the vicious cycle starts again. When you are alone with your feelings it's so easy to give up and give in. Alcohol killed my father and two of my best friends. I should have known better. Thankfully I didn't let it get as far as the physical withdrawal I had last time, which is why I checked into detox. Now just the emotional to deal with. Thanks again. I think this channel will be better than the 100,000 available on TV.
It's so nice to openly talk.