Welcome Sean,
I'm so glad you found us. I sighed when I read your post, because I used to shop for wine based on the alcohol content too. It sounds like you know that you need to stop drinking and we can offer lots of support. I think it's normal to fear living without alcohol. The disease does that to us. It makes us believe that we can't live without it, and yet the opposite is true, because we will die if we continue to drink.