DW, I am a half dozen years older than you, and my experience sounds similar to yours. I always took a little pride in my ability to wallow with eagles at night and soar with the pigs in the morning. Then it clicked for me about two years ago, I went from a drinker to a drunk. The game was on, bourbon in my morning coffee became a game. Now I am broken, I damaged my self, I will never be able to go there again with risking death. (Sounds dramatic huh? But I **** you not, there is a line you cannot see until you pass it.) Do yourself a favor, take a month off from drinking, it should be no big deal, tell your friends you are training for a marathon or something. If there is no addiction, it should not be a problem right?