Thanks for sharing driftwood...this thread is great for those of us who pretty much just drank beer and thought we were "OK" because we did. I was/am like that to, although I didn't drink everyday. I was/am a binger (pretty much every weekend from Friday to Sunday, with the odd weeknight thrown in...all vacations and holidays). Have been for the last 30 years. I just turned 43 sept 7th and celebrated it with a 5 day binge in Vegas...when I got home I quit and haven't had any for 15 days now. I told myself I am not drinking for 30 days as I know I can do that. Saying the rest of my life was to vague and overwhelming, but I know in my heart if I get 30 days I will go for another 30 days. I even went to an beginners AA meeting...I never thought I would do that, but it was great...you might want to check one out. Anyway, great to have you here and I hope you do the right thing for you.