For me, even one drink opens the door
and I am off to the races,,,,,for days.
Moderation does not work, if you are here, it is because deep down you know there is a problem. The disease will tell you you can moderate, it has told me that WAY too many times, and that is why I am back to day 4 right not.
This time I have committed to total abstinance....not even 1, not even 1 glass of wine at dinner with friends, because the one glass of wine, will turn into a bottle of Vodka in a few days, may-be I can control myself that night at dinner, may-be not, but without a doubt it will lead to more drinking in a very short time.
Do not open that door. Ugliness and disaster are on the other side.