I know I need to completely abstain from drinking as I'm sure you do. Despite this, there is a part of me that has some phony dream that I can control my drinking and be like everybody else. In fact not only have I not been able to completely walk away from alcohol, I continue to trick myself with complete lies and fabrications about it "being ok". Its all lies. I woke up this morning feeling like hell from a one night binge. Why? What possible logical reason did I do that to myself? For a buzz? Stupid, stupid, stupid.
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