Welcome, you sound a lot like me. I go to the gym regularly and can quit for a few days quite easily, then after I'm feeling good I decide to drink again. Last night was a big one, drove drunk to get cigs and wine, woke up on the couch. Left TV on, door open, lights on. Total idiot. Didn't go open up the office, reps waiting outside, my partner annoyed because I got wasted. I've quit so many times and I'm tired of quitting. I keep coming back to the conclusion that I simply can't have 2 glasses. Its just not in the cards for me personally. Geez I feel like hell.