Hi Wolf. Dude your story sounds so much like mine. Even lost the best job i ever had as to oxys. From the start of junior high till close to present time i still have trouble saying no... which is why i know i cant be around most of my friends even tho they're not really to fault, if someone has something i just want me and my friends to have a good time.
I by far am not the person who can give advice to you because im still going through aboutthat exact same part of my life as you. I just want you to know that you are not alone man. Stay strong.
Mike.