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Old 09-22-2009, 09:45 AM
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TheLadyb
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: New York, NY
Posts: 98
Overwhelming,,,need to post

I can't make a meeting today, so I wanted to post as I am feeling very overwhelmed. BEing sober is not easy, because I now see all the crap that I need to clean up. HOw bad my relationships are. HOw my marriage is OVER. But I know the best and only thing I can do today is focus on my recover. I can not make any changes until I am healthy, so it gives me more of a incentive to work the plan.

I also feel physically awful, I just want to sleep. My husband is a weekend alcoholic and so the week long between binges he is just so mean to everyone in the house, angry, miserable. Then Friday comes and its BAR time, so is Saturday, Sunday recovery. But I have to put that aside and work on me.

Just for Today, I will be positive, in every area, I will stay sober, I will connect with my higher power.

For the next 24 hours, I wil stay sober, and work and only try and fix me.:praying:praying
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