Morning y'all.
Not doing so well today, messed up again last night--the withdrawals are really bad. But on a very positive note, I might have found a way out of this whole mess yesterday. A big part of my problem is boredom and loneliness. I hung out in the housing office because I was debating turning myself in--to what I don't know, detox, rehab, heck if this state wasn't just releasing criminals these days I'd have turned myself to prison. Anywhere but here, I was just tired of it all.
But I just hung out and talked about normal things, and ended up feeling so much better it's not funny. Of all the things, this disconnected feeling is the hardest to deal with by far. Went home and my roommates had been through my room. Don't know what they were looking for, don't know if they found it (everything I could think of was accounted for).
Anyways, got a few hours sober, my fingers can't move too well, at least the directions I'd like them to move in, and I'm feeling much better about my chances now.
-TB, drinking ner non-alcoholic water and back to eating candies.