((kimm))
Oh Sweetie - please know you are being prayed for right now - my thoughts are with you - praying that you feel your HP's loving arms comforting you right now - that loving grace fills that emptiness in your soul.
As far as what you are "suppose" to feel - there is no right or wrong - it just is what it is - do whatever you need to do - but please please give yourself lots of tender loving care - you need it and your mom would really want you to have it.
HUGS,
Rita