Originally Posted by lococerveza

I know, and guess what? My dad died of cancer at 47, my mom at 50 from cancer I am 40! Good lord I am a freaking moron. I chewed tobacco for 20 years, quit in 2002 and looking back my drinking went up quite a bit then. Its a damn yo yo. I am a day and a half in and not feeling too bad. Stomach upset and mild tremors. I wrote this down today and it got me through for another few hours, I just printed it out and put it in my pocket. Read it when I am having cravings.

cons of drinking:
not spending time with kids/wife
hand tremors, sometimes hard at work,try to mask the problem/say it is low blood sugar
can kill me, liver,kidney, eventually suicidal thoughts will eventually occur
have diabetes,compounds the problems with neurothapy and kidney function (probably main reason i have diabetes)
lose job then family
outcast with family members
costs money, $300 a month
feel like crap most of the day until high again
can't drive at night
sex drive erosion
not being able to have sex at night
peeing the bed
trying to hide urine soaked bed time clothes
avoid overnight trips with kids, wife because afraid i will be all weirded out because most do not drink like me
hiding beer cans
guilt
goes against my moral compass and thoughts about what a father should be
no energy to do anything besides work
afraid of getting caught drunk by surprise visitors at night
i do not like me anymore

pros:
I do not care about the above when i am high