hi creek,
i'm a newcomer and reading your post was really really helpful & it definitely spoke to me. thanks so much for posting that. i'm not sure what else to say for now... i did post a short while ago about two things though that have proven extremely helpful for me (i'm on day 13 of sobriety).
1) kudzu - an herb - google it. it really does help control cravings.
2) a book called 'the zen of recovery' by mel ash.
of course everyone has their own path - what may be helpful for one person may not be so for another but just wanted to share it with you anyway.
thanks again for the post.
888pancakes :ghug3