Step 2 says "We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity." There is nothing about "willing" in it. It is not a decision. It is something you have or you don't. That is why it is one of the steps you cannot work---it is given to you.
It has not been given to me and I think I have given it a fair chance. Even after all these years, my sponsor says it may come....but I doubt it now.