Steve, I am a recovering addict and alchoholic. I became hooked on prescription pain pills shortly after I started using them for a chronic pain condition. It did not take long before they completely took over my life. If I wasn't using, I was figuring out how and when I was going to be able to use again. The longer you go on like you have been, the harder it will be to stop. Do it now, Steve. Call your doctor and come clean. He can help you beat this, but only if he knows what's going on.