Wonderful choice on the meeting! Sometimes that is all you have to hold to, and you know, that's okay. There are people there holding onto the very same thing. They will be glad just to see you there in whatever condition you arrive. It is a powerful thing to have a group share their experiences especially over something that ellicits such a sense of shame and isolation as addiction does.
For me, when I found this site and made the decision to reach out, just the shear number of folks understanding where I was coming from gave me strength and resolve that I could not find.
Hold on to that meeting and hold onto your recovery like a life raft. You are worth the effort!!
Alice