I have this horrible feeling I'm going to drink tonight. I'm already playing mind games thinking it would be ok to have a couple glasses of wine with the neighbor ladies. And I'm sooo in the mood for a drink- a long week, Friday night, a little stressed out....definitely all triggers. If I had a good defense/excuse/reason to tell them I don't want to drink (other than saying I quit) it wouldn't be so bad...but I've got nothin'...I used up most of my excuses these last 12 sober days.
I feel like I'm already throwing in the towel, but I really don't want to!! I know it won't do me a bit of good to drink tonight, I want to stay sober!! Sorry....guess I'm just thinking outloud....fighting with myself.