Thank you so much everyone for all the encouragement. It was exactly a week ago today that I had my first sober day. And today will make it 8.
I'm really missing my boyfriend today. He's in Iraq and I can't seem to fill the hole inside me. But there's a light at the end of the tunnel. In 3 weeks he will be home. I just have to hold on to that. I'm scared though because when he left a year ago I was only starting to completely spiral down. I weighed 50 pounds more than I do now and I was a completely different person. I'm scared he won't like me anymore and I'm scared of what being over there has done to him.