My attempts to try to CONVINCE myself what I saw, smelled and knew was true... why didn't I believe myself?
The constant nodding off
The moodiness
The coughing.... of course it was mostly choking when I would catch him smoking and trying to pretend he wasn't.
The hiding and sneaking...
For God's sake.... just about everything. A friend asked me once, "what is it that he is doing that is annoying you so much?" My reply was, "breathing".
Enough said.