Whenever I drank, it always cost me all I had, with rare exception. If I went out with $500US, I'd be lucky to get home with $50US, if with any at all. Over a thirty year span, the totals are in the thousands, well over 100 grand, possibly a qtr mil, considering lost opportunities, drug use for several years, it hurts to even type this, but it helps to look at what happened. Today, I blew a whopping $1.59 on a 24 oz cup of coffee, that's a start in the right direction for today.