Originally Posted by
Midton 
but rather when I start I can't stop.
Hi Midton,
That was me! Once I got the 'taste' after my first drink, I'd have no choice but to carry on, and on, and on, etc.
Now, it's not my place to tell people if they're an alcoholic or not, but I am an alcoholic and this was one of my problems. I couldn't not have the first drink, then I couldn't stop, then the next day I'd repeat the process.
AA and the 12 Steps was the only thing that worked for me. I also suspect you're living in Japan; that shochu is a Japanese drink I think (I'm half Japanese) which may pose a problem for you if you can't understand the lingo (I'm sure they'll have AA meetings in Japan though; they like their booze the Japanese).
But I can point you in the direction of on-line AA meetings; if you fancy a try of it; it comes highly recommended by me. PM me if you'd like any further information regarding this, or anything else.
Regards,
Tosh.