Hi midton
You sound a lot like me - or the me I used to be....I started drinking alone in my late 20s - I usually drank beer only - I had strict rules about when to drink - I was so good at hiding it, noone knew.
That didn't last for me. By the time I was late 30s, I had no rules, I drank anything, drank anywhere, and everybody knew....bad stuff happened to me too.
I believe it's not
how much you drink, or
what you drink, or how
often...it's
why you drink,
how you drink, and
what happens to you when you do.
I think it's an error to judge yourself against anyone else. I was in with a heavy drinking crowd - I was able to rationalise my consumption for way too many years than I should have.
If you think you have a problem, I think that's reason enough to act.
Welcome to SR
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