You don't have to stay stuck in the cycle.
I know for me, every time I tried to sweep my codependency issues under the rug, the end result was more pain than the last time.
I could only stay in denial for so long. When I finally hit my bottom and sunk to the floor sobbing so hard I thought I was going to throw up, my heart shattered into a million pieces, it was then and only then, I was finally sick and tired of being sick and tired.
You deserve so much better than what you are living, but no one else can give it to you except yourself. :ghug2 :ghug2