Thanks Clay, Dee and Jules, and sfgirl, I know you guys are following my thread and you are all concerned and I appreciate it.
Clay, you have given me a great idea, if he does call me and say he's gonna do himself in I can call the police and they can detain him under the mental health act and keep him safe from himself. That will also force him to get professional help.
He is currently a danger to any woman that would get close to him in the future and I have told him he needs to talk to someone about his drug use and what he did to me. He said he was too ashamed and embarrassed. I hope he finds it in himself to get help as deep down he is a good person he just needs help. [But he still did a very bad thing]
After posting earlier I found the strength NOT to take more codeine, unloading on SR really helps. [Be proud Dee!]
Will post when I get back from therapy tomorrow morning and tell you what advice I receive.
Love to you all,