behind my back
I was just reading some posts...and it got me thinking....
Do you know what scares me the most is I realized a pattern. I am a school teacher and right now I am home ALL the time. However what happens when I go back to school? In the past he would go to the bar while I was at work, or drink while watching our baby, and by the time I got home be drunk and asleep......I am SO scared that is going to happen again. Seems to me last summer he "cut down' while I was home, and when I went back he "went back". Remembering this reality makes me SO nervous........I know I can't make him STOP - hmmmm....I don't know what, but this is really grating on me right now............can I live with this, I wish I could answer that right now!