If my first meeting had been a candlelight I would have tore the doors off the hinges leaving. Some around here (my group) have no esh they can quote the big book they can tell you what their sponser says about that, but I sometimes wonder if these people ever have a original thought anymore. One guy the other night with 16 years said he got up every morning and asked god if he should go to the bathroom, cmon dude. I go to meetings now and if I feel myself getting angry or upset I just leave it dosent bother me to get up and leave any more.