Tib, since you're going to be drinking at home maybe you could read this
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...tion-bret.html and then spend some time watching the video about Bret at A&E. Be sure to watch the follow-up too.
I watched this at my office this afternoon, and honestly it almost left me in a state of shock. I'm a year older than this guy, have two kids, and my marriage also ended.
It was like watching the "alternate ending" to my alcoholism, what would've happened if I hadn't stopped when I did. The denial, self-knowledge, and self-will run riot, I could identify with 100%.