Can't Get Sober/ Can't Get Drunk
Well it looks like I can't get 100% sober not 100% drunk. When I ingest alcohol now I must vomit the first 1 or 2 beers. It's not a lot fun. I haven't resorted back to Listerine though so I am making some progress. I am seeing my doctor next week & will ask for an increase of my Klonopin. Perhaps that will help me stay sober. I was beaten up pretty badly my last drunk & I have decided if I drink I will do so at home. I guess thats a harm reduction model. I had inflammation around my heart from a strong punch & was hospitalized for 3 days. They knew I was an alcoholic because of my high blood pressure and I even had a heart specialist lecture me on alcoholism. I suppose they did detox me with the meds that I like so much. I have no appetite and am extremely depressed from not drinking. If I could I think I would stay drunk 24 hours a day. I know I need to quit because my body is starting to give up. Mentally I gave up years ago and now finally it's the physical part.
tiburon