All I want to do is sleep. I've never been so tired in my entire life. I'm so stuck. I wake up thinking about this ****, I spend all day counting pills, thinking about pills, fighting the urge to take more. It's like sitting outside my body and watching this woman do things. I don't know her, but she's in my life and she's taken away everything that makes me happy. She doesn't get happy, nothing excites her. She's numb to everything. I'm sitting here watching her, and I don't understand why she can't stop. I'm tired of caring. I'm tired of hurting. Why can't the numbness take the pain with it? I'm so tired.