Another encouragement I would like to add is this:
Although the day has opened up like a long lonely night and all I want to do is phone my friend and companion - the man that I love, instead I put on some beautiful music and have little moments where I relish the peace. Even my cat seems happier, less hiding and more cuddling up to me, and my baby kicks me happily. There is no arguing, no tension, no shouting, no name calling. Just peace and beautiful music playing.
How about filling the emptiness by relishing the peace that has replaced all the chaos? And take care of yourself with beautiful soft music, a nice warm bubble bath, your favourite movie, favourite food, a nice comforting warm relaxing drink, comfy clothes, good conversations with close friends? It's time to take care of yourself.