I'm a quitter?
Apparently, I am a quitter...according to AH. He says this because we are catholic and he knows how strongly I feel about divorce...he relates this to me stating that if he goes back to drinking and things go back to how they were, that I will leave. So I am a quitter. I quickly reminded him that he has the choice of whether or not to drink, and that I have simply given him the consequences to his actions. This never goes over well...he things I am threatening him. However, I have always reminded him that when we were married I know the priest used the words honor and cherish....well if you have read any of my previous posts then you know that these are two words he must not have heard. Anyway, I have been working on me, and I am feeling more like the strong ME that I have always been...the fog and insanity of what my life became is clearing and I am finally seeing things for what they are. He told me he wants me to go back to normal - well the normal he wants is not going to happen....I feel like he needs me to be caught up in his anger and views in order to be happy, and I am DONE with that. While quitting drinking, he has not really bought in to the fact that anything else needs to be changed...last night he accused me of cheating again...(right as if I have time or energy for that). Here is what I am contemplating now...I have 4 sons and a daughter....I would NEVER allow my sons to treat anyone the way he treats me and I would absolutely die if my daughter was on the recieving end of what I have been going through....so how do I make sure they become the men I know they are. My 4 sons and I moved in with my AH only 1 1/2 years ago...and I am afraid they are going to become mean verbally and angry and aggressive. And for my daughter, who is a baby, do I want her to see her father treat me or anyone else like that...he even said last night when she was crying while he was holding her that , "look my own daughter doesn't even like me." I feel like that is mentally abusive to her already.......I love my husband, but my childrens mental health and my mental health are important to me, and what am I doing allowing them to see this?