I was raised Southern Baptist and went to church 3 times a week until I was 17, the time of my fathers death. I was convinced at an early age to seek salvation or else: damnation and to burn eternally in hell.
So yea, the whole G*d deal totally triggers old wounds. Wounds of feeling deceived, manipulated and brainwashed. For a long time after I left the church I was a very vocal strong atheist. Imagine my horrific shock when I sought recovery for the first time and was introduced into the 12-steps.
Thanks to a Zen practice and being here at SC I have mellowed quite a bit
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