I came to be a christian in my early twenties and was really immersed in all that implies. After about 3 years of going to church 3 times a week...it dawned on me that I didnt believe anymore what the church was teaching people. So I gradually drifted away as I came to my own ideas as to life, meaning, and what not. Since then I have often considered myself spiritual...but of course when I was drinking I wasnt able to really practice anything...even a coherent line of thought for that matter. Since becoming sober I have started learning some about Stoicism....which at least so far rings pretty true to me. I guess I do believe that there is something(someone?) out there that is a governing force but I am inclined to think it is simply mother nature. I also lean towards Buddhism some...... So yes I was religous at one time but I have found a mish mash balance now of different ideas about life.....