Kelly I am a little late adding anything to this thread, but I understand trying to fight this alone, some folks can get all they need from SR, but if you are like me, I could not do it alone, I needed a program and face to face support, I am an alcoholic and I found that in AA, you can find the same in NA. Congrats on staying clean thus far, doing it alone is darn tough, I never could do it alone, I only found long term happy sobriety once I got into AA with the program and face to face support, you are not alone, there are plenty of folks that will be more then happy to walk the path with you.