I cannot believe I've never been arrested. I cannot believe I've never had a DUI. I cannot believe I've never had an accident. I cannot believe I've never ruined or altered someone else's life or even my own life.
YET!
Ortho welcome to SR, I was like you for quit a few years, if you are an alcoholic like I am then I can tell you that as long as an alcoholic drinks their alcoholism never gets better, nor does it stablize, it always gets worse!
I went from being a binge drinker to being a daily/maintenance drinker, to becoming physically addicted to alcohol.
Why not check out some AA meetings, trust me there are plenty of binge drinkers in AA that have been happily sober for many years thanks to AA.
Why experience the yets if you do not have to.