mistycshore

A shrink, Canadian, told me that the desire to feel an altered state is natural - and that's why little kids spin around in circles until they fall down. My days of spinning in circles or visiting amusement parks are past (I left my last Six-Flags visit with nothing more than a great desire to abuse other people's children.) She said that I was going to have find another way to fulfill that desire.

I've been pittling on and off with a novel, and sometimes that really is an absolute escape into another reality (one where I'm young and pretty and brave and have magical powers - lol). Sometimes kayaking or gardening or being focused on some household project can be zen-like, but not escapist. I do think figuring that out is going to be a part of recovery.