You can do it Freebird!!!!!! I know it is hard. One thing that helped me was a list I made of all the dramatic events. It was years worth of journaling... like a diary. If I ever find myself needing incentive, I pull it out of the bookcase and read a few pages!
Now, if I could just put this into a book that I could market, I'd make a fortune! We all have such similar stories, don't we?