Its hard to be rejected by the reject. Wasn't there a thread with that name not too long ago?
I feel the same way alot. My exah seems to have many, many women lined up at his door. Heck he had them lined up before he left. Me? I have nobody lined up. Not one. But I do have my sanity (most of the time), and my precious baby.
Those emails are painful triggers. Delete them if you can.