omg I have those thoughts too... about EVIL. paralyzing. i ask my hp, why does EVIL always win? why does such a good person as my partner suffer from such a terrible disease? why did she have to be molested as a child? how come good people suffer and die? i think about all the tradgedies and injustices and i wonder what is the point of submitting to a hp- who is this hp- what is the point of all this? will one moment of love make up for all of it? i don't get it. i was raised very religiously and although i do not identify now with any religion, god, or my hp, is the most important concept or "thing" to me.... i dont' know how to accept this world and what is happening. i'm sorry this isn't an encouraging post... but i need help with this. anyone who can relate and who has found some answer ... or way to reconcile... please write.